▲ strangers
Saturday, April 23, 2011, 6:52 PM
I look at you and you look back but neither see the other. at that point of epiphany i know that the friendship we once shared has forever vanished into the long-reaching arms of the past; what was and never shall be again. i remember when i first saw you, your hair woven into a cascade behind you as you entered, your apprehensive, beautiful eyes searching around. your mischievous, laughing smile lit up the room, however brief, the way you were so close yet so far away. i watched as the small flashes of brilliance slowly turned into streams of dim light as you came nearer but turned further away. you brought me the moments of my greatest happiness; but when my heart was in your hands there was no second thought as my being was crushed under an absolute, unbearable weight. separation has never dulled the ache nor softened your cutting disdain, even seeing you after all these years have passed the memories reappear and are relived, they are as fresh and as painful as they were when they occured.
but then i look again and realise what I see is merely a shell, the smile no longer shines as it once did, the eyes duller in their beauty, the hair moves but no longer flows. you are her but she is not you. the person i knew and loved is not the person i see now, the person who was the very fibre of my being have faded away with the years. you are not the person i once knew, and i am at once both saddened and glad by that fact. the memories will stay as they are; memories; and i will look back on those times and recall a girl who I loved and lost and will never see again, and I will remember them fondly and hold them dear because they were good times, because I was happy. and I will weep because they have passed, and because I was never to you as you were to me.
so I look at you, and you look back. your eyes are sad and if I could see through them I would know that mine are as well. i would never know what you thought we were, but i know what we are now.
Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet, I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met, How you felt around me? The memories we shared, And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.
Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried, But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied, That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split, But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.
The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years, I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears, Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got, And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.
You were a special part of my life that I will never forget, A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret, You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart, Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.
You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so, After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know, You and I had something special and that will never change, Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.
Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever, I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever, That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away, And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.
-Would You Just Listen; Tara Kay
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